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Thursday, 13 January 2011

  • As You Like it

    Could You...

    In this -our life- find progress for the lost, promise in the found//

    Inner peace in the face of conflict and, a way up for those who are down//

    Valid solutions to potential questions and answers for those -ignorant bound?//

    Could You...

    Open your ear and your patience to the trifling

    and in your heart of heart find ~good~ in everything?

     

     

Sunday, 21 March 2010

  • A Not-so-Tale of Commercial Holidays and all that jazz… 02/26

    We’re barely into March and you can already see it. Corporation after corporation granting the masses a quick fix in exchange for a couple of bucks just like that “pusher” on the corner of that urban neighborhood. Who cares if they’re dishing out mass produced unpleasantries that cost them next to nothing.  It’s about net worth and gross! Forget health! Now, now this is not written with means to turn people off of their bunny ears, heavens know they look awfully cute wearing them. In fact, I will not press further into Easter. In a true testament of ‘better late than never’ I’m actually going to take it back to December and bring it back to February and then… end.

    So, rabbit got a tree because he adores spoiling the lil ones. We did the present thing… wrapping and bows and all… and in shame I admit that I still have a few things wrapped up and ready to be sent out. Did ya’ll know that wrapping paper goes stale over time? Yeah, those gifts are looking real tacky right now. So as it stands all presents that came from thee had been opened far too early, due to things being delivered directly to the homes of others from the manufacturer itself or not at all because it’s still here.  Needless to say nothing for the kids made it to Christmas because they wanted to open three things at a time every single day and then… finally, they took down the tree like a couple of rabid ninjas, throwing ornaments around the apartment like kunai masters, FTMFW. So what did we do on December 25, 2009… the last Christmas of that Decade…

    Well, though our tree was down I figured we would still do the Christmas thing by going over to mi madres… despite the last X-mas that has been updated back in what ’04… ’05? The day went well enough, much like any other day if I recall correctly until around 4pm.

     So there we were heading down Chamberlayne instead of staying on I-95 to get to Glen Allen  (another one of my bad ideas) and what should happen. Well, first I see a man who was either a bum or a hobo… I’d like to think the latter of the two because those are the ones who actually attempt to work.  You already know your dear girl has a soft heart for those who are ill fated… that, and she is impulsive to a fault… Yeah, somewhere between the spirit of the ‘holiday’ (as if) and the fact that the sky was an ominous grey and it was raining I hopped out of the car mid traffic and gave whatever bit of money along with food (McDonalds was it) to him before chasing down the Dodge because dear Rabbit couldn’t just stop mid traffic because his dear Sagittarius is a foolish foolish girl… Wait, it gets better…

    So Kaoz bunny commences to give me a word or two in regards to one’s judgment… or lack thereof. You have to love a Leo’s passion, smh. So caught up in his dear Sagittarius he lost sight of the road… tunnel vision, ftw? The roads in RVA are trash but rapidly approaching a median does not make things easier on my dear Dodge who has been in two previous accidents, probably more, people aren’t too quick to admit things like that. Much like the Titanic there was a last minute swerve followed by an “damn… it’s too late” While yes, I laugh now, it was not nearly as funny then… she hit and she hit far harder than necessary for us as the passengers to not feel a thing. Or maybe my rabbit is just that damn talented? ^_^

    Upon the hit we somehow made it across three lanes in the rain, in VA, into a Burger King parking lot, with VA drivers, without incident.  A-friggin-mazing! You know, minus the fact that both tires on the left hand side of the car were smashed.  Back then I went on my Bohemian Faye rant about how this is this and that is that on little to no ground outside of ranting and raving  - and in the end came up with the conclusion that I will no longer donate to people who are just standing on a corner, soooo over it.  Has anyone else ever realized that you never see a girl standing on the corner unless she’s a street-walker, and even still I have never seen one of those… I’ve seen people dressed like they could be one, but nope they weren’t. In all my years I’ve seen a female bum/hobo only once and she was holding a sign up about her kids, medication, and a ~possible~ foreclosure… Yes, I find this interesting even today… and yes, I hopped out the car and gave money to her despite being late for an interview.

    Anywho, after hours of waiting for AAA we were rescued and towed to his Caddy where we begun our adventure anew. The AAA guys was pretty cool for a 6ft angry looking brawny bald guy who had right quick changed the station as if I wasn’t sitting in the cab of the truck while the dodge was being lifted… it was on one of the left wing talk shows that made good of blaming everything but the kitchen sink on the president. Guess he thought I’d be offended, go figure? Poor thing.  At least we learned a lot from each other in the end, like some U-turns should not be made in a tow-truck, baby slobber on a 2ft gummi snake is not appealing, while in a tow truck you have the right of way, most people who operate toll booths are lazy, and finally as the operator of a tow-truck all spots are blind spots so get out the way. ^_^

    Around 11 or so we did make it to g’ma’s place… dinner was interesting <3, and the kiddies made good of tearing everything open, even if it wasn’t theirs. Joy of joys. Oh, and my brother plays a wicked “twinkle twinkle little star” on the piano… go figure. 

    When it was all said and done that day was a good day… but so is everyday if it’s truly looked back on it…in the end.

    As for Valentines/Singles Awareness/Whatever day… I made good of letting everyone know that it was actually the Year of the Tiger. Mew! Though Rabbit did get the kids valentines bears and treats, he loves to spoil, he also got me a rose now that I think about it but that was split between the babies. Another ring has been introduced but the wedding band got sucked into the vacuum and its now bent… in my own defense I was not the one vacuuming at the time. None the less – more often than not I actually hate being right… and thus we learn why Faye loves to be proven wrong.  Tis the life of the Jaded Optimist… buuuut, you know what they say about the ones who prepare for the worse. <End>

     

Thursday, 04 March 2010

  • Coming Undone... still incomplete.

    Recently I felt compelled to let it be known that one’s optimism is a trait that was predetermine by higher authorities.  This one thing amongst several others has been hardwired into my being while my physical form was still in its developmental stages.  I read once- that an optimist is a person who doesn’t have all the facts; otherwise they would have no reason to be happy just mellow and full of faith until their heavenly father sweeps them away. How sad must be their existence?

    It is in my belief that optimism is a trait, even if it was not passed down or inherited in this case.  It is something that cannot be affected so easily by ones environment or will because change is not that simple.  It  is always there for better and for worse.  It is in this that I bring up environmental influences- the cause for ones jadedness. This “jadedness” is hardly something new- it has been a part of me for a long time coming.  In fact, I’ve been becoming less and less cynical the more I learn that I am not always right about people… the more I learn that let-downs are not a necessary evil, that ignorance is not universal. That love does not have to hurt to be right- somethings need not be kept by means of constant battle and strife. My vision, no longer tunneled... (to be cont.)

Sunday, 14 February 2010

  • Thought it appropriate much... Welcome to the year of Metal Tigers... From that Fire Kitten, roar!

    Description and Character Traits
    Chinese Symbols
    Animal Symbol
    Ancient Symbol
    Element Symbol
    The Tiger
    The Respect
    Fire
    Brief Description
    Tigers are strong but very emotional and sensitive. They can get stubborn over things that they believe to be right or true.
    Positive Traits
    lovable, alluring, warm-hearted, altruistic, honourable, hard-working, pleasant, independent, engaging, dynamic and idealist sweetie pies
    Negative Traits
    rash, hot-headed, reckless, infatuated, quarrelsome, caustic, moody, predatory, rebellious, disobedient and irreverent rascals
    General Description
    of All Tigers

    Tigers do not find worth in power or money. They will be completely honest about how they feel and expect the same of you. On the other hand, they seek approval from peers and family. Generally, because of their charming personalities Tigers are well liked. Often, failing at a given task or being unproductive in his personal or professional life can cause a Tiger to experience a depression. Criticism from loved ones can also generate this type of Tiger reaction. Still, like all felines, Tigers always land on their feet, ready for their next act in life, pursuing it with unyielding energy and hunting it infallibly.

    Tigers are also incorrigibly competitive - they simply cannot pass up a challenge, especially when honor is at stake, or they are protecting those they love. Tigers are unpredictable and it would be unwise to underestimate their reactions. They may appear cool, but they have the Big Cat's instincts to pounce at a moment's warning. Natural leaders, they have a strong sense of their own dignity, and if they find themselves in the ranks, they can be stubborn and obstinate. In positions of power they can be difficult though stimulating bosses. Tigers are intelligent, alert, and farsighted. They have their fingers on the pulse. Good strategists and tacticians, they often have a hidden agenda. As long as they do not risk their luck too often, and keep their restless nature under control, their tactics usually pay off in life.

    Detailed Description
    of The Fire Tiger
    Eccentric and dramatic, Fire Tigers are aglow with passion and verve. They are outgoing, expressive and look on the bright side of things. They have the Tiger's natural ability to lead others and are able to excite others simply with their own gift of enthusiasm. They can be funny and have great senses of humor. Tigers are powerful speakers and have the ability to command and persuade crowds through speech. Their own seemingly endless supply of energy can make them appear a bit dramatic, and it may make them more sensitive to cautious or down-to-earth approaches in others.

Wednesday, 10 February 2010

  • Pride is my Sin

    I realize now that a lot of you may be mutual friends of dear chaos and another madness type character and apologize if a level of awkwardness has been established due to my rant of a not so distant past. Though most understand where I come from in the all of this, because you have either followed me throughout the entire ordeal, or better yet you have asked demanding questions that I haven’t begun to ask myself until recently. I write this for a different set of people, two in particular have only resurfaced and seem to be the most bothered. I made moves on reasons that have not been explained to them as I forget where I had an obligation to do such. With this being said I do not take back my behavior as that would be a fool’s wish. A waste if ever I saw one because we are incapable of changing the past but we are capable of molding our future. Here's to lessons learned and better mistakes should we -need- to make them.

    We have all heard that I hold myself to a very high standard of ethic and honor. If you see a good fight get in it, if you see a wrong fix it, and if you are going to make moves make them honest. With this noted, I like to be playful. I like to jest. I like to be friendlier (sillier even) than I actually am because I do like people in spite of my independent nature. If ever I trust you to me and I ask a question I expect a simple answer, cut throat, to the point. If you demand ANYTHING of mean, I pray thee do the same. Being sideways will only serve for me to distrust you, if I cannot trust you I become angered by you. Simple. There is an easy fix to this.  Some know this more than others for a few of you are used to being my on-again-off-again friends of sorts - alas, I pray we have no more off's... and if we are to have more off's that there shouldn't be so many 'on's'. A fact that mayhaps I have only made clear to Rabbit... I announce it now... this girl is WEARY. I'm tired and really, I have too much going on to fight over the frivolous. If it is artificial I'd rather let it be. I mean, if you have wronged I will give fight, but then I will have no choice but to settle back because I cannot keep doing this to myself besides, it is best to let you come at your own accord, when you are ready... rather than by my force of will. In the same event, if I have wronged it may take some time and outside influence, I would have to realize that a move *I* believed to be right was actually not upon careful reflection, and then I would have to muster an apology. I am but a girl. I have my ups, my downs, my rights, and my wrongs. When you've been wronged I've been a comforting shoulder, a confiding ear. It should not be too much to ask for the same. 

    My obligation to doing whats right leads me to seek solutions in favor of the majority because, as narcassistic as I 'claim' to be ,I am merely human. As such I accept you as you are and ask nothing more in return.

    Flaws and all, your lady Faye... humbled.

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